Words

Recover

Uncover
Discover

Cover my eyes and count to ten
The reality is the same.

No matter how I spin this aftermath.

My child is gone
The Disconnect remains
My head and my heart refuse to speak
And painful longing fills the void.

As I sit
Questioning my own reality
Did she even exist?

How can she be gone?

Why?

I feel judged that I have not accepted this loss
And “moved on”/”forward” – whatever euphemism for “healing”

My brain knows she’s gone
My heart just – so – too much.

Just too much to bear.

And I want no one to experience their child’s death –

It is truly undefinable.

04/08/2021

Published by Kate B

I am trying to integrate my loss with life...

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